Friday, June 19, 2009

snowman

It was some bullshit Christmas present project, the same sort of thing you always do in elementary school, the macaroni crap you go and give to your parents or grandparents to stick on there tree. This was the year after I switched schools, I was going to a small rural school with 15 kids to a class and there was only one class per-grade (except 4-5, they had only one teacher for that class, the combined the two due to the budget) to a big school with 30 to a class, and two classes of each grade. In my old school we actual did some sweet things, we made orange clove balls and Hershey kiss mice. Now in that school, while there was an overall sort of guide for these projects, there was room for expansion and improvisation. Not so in the new school, we had to make some sock snowmen. Every kid got a kit, with two socks, some puff ball thigers for the eyes and little paper instructions. They were all supposed to be little bland male snowmen. I made a female one, with happy looking eyes, a headband instead of a hat and a ponytail. It was like that will almost all of my art projects in elementary school, my mom says that she could always pick out what one I did apart from all the others. It wasn't so much that a chaffed under rule and was some kind of pre-pubescent rebel with out a cause, I just wanted to improve and expand on the guidelines they set before me, because I saw them just as that, guidelines. I also leaned at an early age that the “grades” you get in elementary school don't mean shit, no one cares if you color the sky purple in kindergarten, some times the sky looks prettier that way, fuck realism.

Friday, May 15, 2009

an interesting paper?

how come out of a class of 20, 4 people are doing it on drinking.

that's almost a quarter of the class, all doing it on the same thing

i thought the whole point was to do something outside of your subculture, to do some actual research rather then just getting shitfaced on the weekends, like you normally do, and reading some pamphlet done by madd.

perhaps it is just me, I'm just cranky and anti-social, but at least have some sympathy for the teacher, he has to read and correct all of these papers. Drinking can only be covered from so many different angles.

perhaps its just me looking for a challenge, looking to do "real research" by picking a topic that hasn't been beat to death yet by every high school health class

I know I'm probably picking a fight posting this on here, but its the end of the semester and chances are that I'm not going to see any of you next year.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

quilting the great oxymoron





Fairly receclenty, I have gotten into crafting various things, mostly sewing small bags and other items. It gives me a sence of purpous to have smally easly atanable goals in my life like that, its a sort of small gratification that last longer then just beating a game because you can see your resultes and they are useful. I mostly scrounge up good-will and the like for old sheets and curtians that I can use for my projects. One day I decided to stop in at The Sewing Basket in Plymouth, a shop that speicalised in quilting, to see what they had for scrap bags. Every bit of fabric there was outlandishly expensive, a bag of scrap that only contained 3 diffrent types of fabric and was only about an half yard total was $7. For me that is an outlandish rip off, i can get about a half yard out of an old pillow case for 0.50.-1.00$, and i can get close to two yards out of an old sheet for 3.00$. I am sure that the fabric at Sewing basket is quality fabric, but so are the old bedlinins I get from thrift shops, its allready pre-washed, pre-shrunk, pick out a few hems, do a but of ironing and your good to go. I am sure the quilters of old never would have dreamed of buying new fabric for there quilts. How did quilting, an art that rose out of thriftiness from saving old scraps of dresses and shirs and the like become such a yuppietised expensive hobby for rich old women?

Monday, April 20, 2009

I used to think that collage was for smart people

I used to think that collage was only for smart people, people that are smarter for me.
but now I'm coming to the realization that it isn't for smart people, its for people who jump though all the hoops that the school system and the government sets up for them, or for people who have parents who will pay for them. In high school, i worried because i didn't take school that seriously, i just did the minimal required amount of work and then went off and did my own thing. Even though I made the minimally excepted grades to get by, I still ended up helping half the class in English, history or science. I never did all that prep-work for the SATS that the media seems to propagate, I simply went and took the test, and i got a 22 on it, good enough for most 4 year schools. I ended up going to UW Sheboygan because i didn't really have the money for a big school, or the grades really. When I started here, I thought, oh, its only a 2 year local school, its understandable if people are not as serious as people in a 4 year school, and it is also understandable if people are not as smart because it is a local 2 year school. but then i went down to visit my boyfriend in UW Milwaukee, its just the same only the people there are from richer families, and there are more of them and they live in a closer proximity to campus. so there are more parties, that's the only difference, there not any smarter or more serious about school then anyone in Sheboygan

Friday, April 3, 2009

A Two Class System

I know that it is hard to run any kind of free game site, you have the cost of the servers, the cost of the bandwidth, staff, and numerous other things out there.
But that is what advertising is for, in game or on site advertising, I have seen it work out the major network sites, a quick little :30 advertisement and then back to the show. You could do this very easy while a game is loading, or have little things in the game like in Burnout Paradise, there are billboards along the city streets, adding to the realistic factor of the game as well as generating some revenue for a game.

Why hasn't the free MMO community picked up on this?

I admit, back in the day I hopped around quite a bit with MMO's
MMO's are Massive Multiplayer Online game, Warcraft is a MMO.
I mostly stuck to Koran MMO's, online games are incredibly popular over in Asia, in japan there have been cases where people have gone on week long benders with games and had to me hospitalized because they played for 32 hours straight.

I don't have anywhere near that kind of additive personality, I normal switched games after i got to around level 20 and went onto another game, probably because no one I knew in real life was ever playing the same game as me.

I have Played, Runescape(what early 2000's nerd kid hasn't?) Maple Story (2d) Fly for fun (was kinda cool, there was aerial combat) Perfect world (almost killed my graphic card, but it wasn't translated quite right) Silk Road( there were only 3 classes, so it got rather boring) and right now I am on Lunia, its a arcade fighting rpg, it has fighting combos and the like. it is also in 2d)

I have never played money for any of these games, I just didn't feel like I should pay if I was switching games so much, but in every game there was some "cash" items in the game.
"cash" item are in game items(0's and 1's) that people pay real money for, they can be clothing or weapons, and are normaly much better then the other things in the game

I think this is rather un-fair, and a poor busnes decision.
It is unfair because if I worked hard in the game, went on many raids and got lots of in game gold to buy a sword, and then someone who is only a week into the game can go and buy a sword that is much better then mine.

This is a poor a bushiness decision because it will drive players away, the old ones who know what is going on. Pretty soon the n00b to oldie ratio is going to be greatly effected, and that is no fun for the new or the old. The n00bs will stay n00bs because they will have no one to explain things to them, and the oldies are going to be annoyed and driven away from the game buy everyone asking for help. In order to get some quick cash, the greatly skew and unbalance the game driving people away.

It creates two classes of player, the ones who are willing to pay for pixels, and the ones who work for there stuff, and creating two classes is never good, it causes resentment and tensions in a type of game that is all about working together tords a common goal.

(PVP (player vs player) doesn't count to me, if you kill someone in PVP, you'll non enemies with them after the battle, you still would go on raids with them as long as they were fair in the fight)



Lunia the game I play right now
I play as Deathpee and visable_panties (don't ask)

RE:Here
is an interesting article done by The Guardian out of Brittan on the same subject

Monday, March 16, 2009

I see you there mallard duck


The mallard ducks of Sheboygan hold a special place for me. There are no ducks in Plymouth, there are only big smelly Canadian geese, who for some reason chose not to migrate till December, and Seagulls who hang out in the McDonald parking lot and eat french fries and are just general annoying. The Mallards on the other hand, are pretty passive in my experiences, and always migrate on time.
I like seeing them on the streets because it is a reversal of roles in my mind, normally it is civilization intruding into the natural world, here it is the natural world intruding into the city in a subtle and largely unnoticed way. There is something so adorable to me about seeing a pair of Mallards swimming in puddle downtown in a rainstorm while people walk by.
It is also adorable to see a little male Mallard walking about with his little harem of 2 or 3 females behind him, and how he defends them from the obnoxious seagulls.
It is also a definite sign of spring to me, the seagulls are always around leaching food off of civilization, and geese leave later and later every year and come back earlier earlier every year. The Geese are alot more resultant then the ducks, they can scrounge up food in the grass when the water is frozen. I don't think the ducks can do that, I think they mostly live off fish, and they are alot smaller and cannot stand the temperatures that the geese and gulls can.
They also reminds me of middle school, my best friend in middle school kept ducks and showed them in the fair every fall, the same kind too, Mallard ducks. Him and his sister kept Sponge Bob and Patric for many years until a fatefully midnight snack by some raccoons.
I haven't seen any ducks yet, but im waiting. For both the ducks and spring.

Friday, February 27, 2009

poem

ode to you o' clicky lady
i hear you walking down the hall
clip-clop clip-clop
just resign yourself to shortness
everyday i want to take a saw to your $30 pumps

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Neon

Although it is nice to fill up with only 20$, my Doge Neon sucks.
The first problem is the leaking of oil, although the car is 12 years old, it only has about 70,000 miles on it, and at least 5000 are from my driving down to Milwaukee on a weekly basis and a trip back and forth to La Cross. My Neon is a first year Neon, which according to my dad is a rather bad investment, there are still many kinks to work out of the design problem and they haven't receded any feedback.
The reason that it is leaking oil is because they made the engine block out of two different metals, to try something new and be all experimental and stuff. The problem with that is that two metals (in this case aluminum and the standard steel i believe) shrink and expand at different rates, breaking the head gasket. Getting a new head gasket is $500 to get replaced, $500 can buy a hell of a lot of oil.

(btw if any mechanics want to call me out on my bullshit, feel free i won't be offended)

Another thing is the defroster, i would put a picture up on here if i could find my camera at the monument. For reference, just think of the dash on your car, there are more then one heating vent right? There is on bigger longer on in the middle and two little ones on the side, right? I only have the lager on in the center, it only defrost the middle of my windshield, a right pain in the ass when I'm driving down the highway

The last thing is that I only have a radio, no cd player, no tape desk. I would very much like to listen to my own music rather then the stuff on the radio, but I have never seen an radio adapter that made sence or lasted more then 3 hours on batteries.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Fish have a skeleton

First off, I would like to lay it out on the table that I am a vegetarian.

I'm not one of those girls that's all like, I LUVR ANIMANALS!!!!! UR A MURDER IF YOU EAT MEAT!!

I have many reasons, and the death of a living thing is only a part of that. By not eating meat, more of the grain that would go to feeding cows pigs and chickens will go to people in third world counties, by not eating meat, I am helping the planet. In addition to all that grain that those non-existent animals would have eaten, there is also the water they would have drank, and the pollution they would have created with there fecal matter. I am also a vegetarian because of the animal suffering, I don't like the fact that chickens die with half of there beaks cut off and never being able to fully spread there wings in there short life. I don't like the fact that pigs are intelligent enough to be house broken and used as pets, but we still kill them horribly. I don't like the fact that cows have there young taken away from them and sometimes even killed in front of them. I am vegetarian because its healthier to not have the added fat in your diet from meat. And lastly, I am vegetarian because it is important to my boyfriend who I love very much.


I putting this out here, not to preach at you, but so you realize the context that I am coming from.


Fish are meat, if you eat fish, you eat meat.

Thats you are not a vegetarian if your eating fish. The ocean is being depleted of fish because of the rate of commercial fishing going on right now, your not saving the planet by only eating fish, the fish your eating could be going to whales or other at risk or endangered species. Eating fish is more healthy then eating other meats, but its not a vegetable, it doesn't grow in the ground. There are no fish trees or fish bushes.


I know that was pretty bitchy and rant like, but I swear to god if I have to hear some self-righteous woman talk about animals rights, to only mow down on her McFish, I'm going to slap her with a Catfish.